I'm Pregnant!

:-) Never underestimate the prayer of a 4yr old!!!! (-:

Current mood: stoked

Category: Life

So it goes like this:

Since January 31st I been feeling like it was high time we added to our family. I didnt express my thoughts verbally cause Joseph and I have discussed it and we both had mixed feelings on the topic....

People have constantly asked "aint it about time ya'll had another one?" I would brush it off, cause evidently if you arent preventing for 4 years and it aint happened yet it apparently isn't God's timing......

For the last 2 weeks I been sore in places I don't think I should have been... So I slowed waaaaaaaay down @ the gym, sticking to abs, eliptical and treadmill.....

Naomi asked me just this Sunday "Mom, can I ask God for a baby brother?"

I was like, whhhhhoooooaaaaa, He's about the only one you need to talk to about that. Ha.

Since Jan 31st I've been waiting.....nothing ever happened..... I went and got a ept and tested yesterday morning, getting a negative result.

I went to the doc today and they did a blood test.... getting a poitive result. Woot Woot!!!

So. The Moral of the story is.......

:-) Never underestimate the prayer of a 4yr old!!!! (-:

in prayer

lord, i need you i need you in my heart you seem so mysterious at times i am confused i must learn to trust and keep hold of your hand the questions come why, Lord, why? and then I must remember you know our comings and our goings the reasons are yours to know i cling to all i know trying desperately to place it all the tumultuous thoughts and emotions to be hurt or not to be hurt? offended, offensive...? my decision is to be defended using Christ alone as my defense my heart may be wounded words, actions, deeds be the swords tip yet i will not waver i will not fall i place my well-being in your hand fear, torment, worry have no place in my heart the guilt, the blame, the condemnation satan is angered though it may be thrown my way, i refuse to let it stay as the duck QUACK QUACK and it rolls off it's back so be the fiery darts of the enemy drowning, spiraling down in the current i feel i can't break through i reach, i grasp, hurriedly hoping its all a bad dream calm, peace, serenity.... words flying incomprehensible through my head the tornado grows, the winds blow.... the rain begins, hard, angry, huge drops flood my soul beating away the hurt, the pain then lightly now, slacking ever so slightly, a smooth wisping sprinkle like fresh dew on the rose I feel the gentle drops carrying away all that should be gone refreshing, cold the smell of spring showers i feel the life stirring deep within, my heart is healing not worried, but at peace surprised at the change the storm can bring i awake, i smile. i dance, i pause. You alone, Jesus, are my salvation. You bring me peace no man can bring. Your word is wise, your patience longsuffering. You do not condemn. You speak life. You bring all that is good into my life. Your grace, your mercy - Always steady and unchanging. Washed away, in the sea of forgetfulness, all my torment, my pain - I thank you, i praise you. You alone are worthy My Lord My Savior My Christ My King..... But most of all, MY FRIEND

Food For Thought

I was reading a christian novel last night, and in doing so, the Lord opened my eyes to something I have been too blind to see. I do not have the book with me, so I am very much so going to paraphrase here. I hope it gets the point across. In this novel, a man was trying to comfort a friend who was faced with some difficult decisions. He began to tell her of a story his father used many times in sermons in days gone by..... There was this older fisherman who found himself alone out on the rough seas as a storm began to settle in. His small fishing boat was soon capsized by the overbearing waves, and the fisherman thought he'd surely perish. Much to his amazement, the Lord had it be that his boat capsized near an old and rusty buoy. The fisherman gave every ounce of determination he could muster fighting the waves to grab a hold of the old rusty thing. He climbed up on the buoy and held fast, praying and thanking the Lord that he'd not drowned. As he clung to the buoy for dear life, tossed to and fro in the tumultuous waves, the old man prayed that the Lord would spare his life. Minutes seemed like hours, and it wasn't too terribly long that another small craft happened by the buoy carrying a younger fisherman. The second threw the old man a rope and begged him to take hold so he could pull him to safety and get him to land.... time and time again the younger fisherman threw out a lifeline, begging the old man to let go of the buoy and come to the safety of the boat. The old man, out of fear, clung fast to the rusted buoy... He refused to loosen his grip for fear he'd be tossed under and swallowed up by the sea. The younger fisherman, heart wrought with despair, had no choice but to head inland before his craft be taken by the sea, thus leaving the old man to die, cold and alone in the midst of the storm. How many times do we, as Christians, hold on tight to all that is before us, praying God 'spare our lives', and when he happens by to send a lifeline REFUSE TO LET GO of the rusted old buoy and be pulled to safety? Lord, please, teach me to not hold on to the things I would believe to be my safety and life. Let me always be open to YOUR WAY, for you alone know my life's needs. I don't want to drown in the sea of storms because I try to work my life out on my own terms. Lead my life, Lord, in every way. I desire whole-heartedly YOUR WILL be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Thank you for your mercy and grace, Lord. I bless your name, Jesus. Amen.

Sight Past Your Horizon...

I received this quote today: God made the world round so we would never be able to see too far down the road. - Isak Dinesen Sometimes, we may become baffled at the fact that we don’t know what our tomorrow holds… or where each crossroad we face may lead. It is this simple fact alone that should propel us to seek after Christ’s face each and every morning. The scripture says in Proverbs 8:17 “I love them that love me; and those that seek me early shall find me.”Today, if you are feeling a bit overwhelmed with the world that is swirling around you, your lack of vision past your horizon, or the stresses of past regrets, SEEK HIM. The “Theme” for Word Alive this year is “It’s time to Shine in Two-Thousand Nine”… and for the past few weeks I have had a song (Jesus Calling by 33Miles) in my head…T he lyrics are so fitting with what I have on my heart this morning. “What do you see when you look at your world today Is it so full of clutter that you feel like you’re going insane And you can’t fight back cause you’re just too afraid and it seems like the clouds in your sky don’t wanna change You see there’s always another story, another side to every coin, And how you see your circumstance is all about a choice When you see the rushing wind , feel the pouring rain, hear the thunder now as the clouds roll in and you’re blinded by the lightning, do you also hear that still, small voice saying It’s okay, you’re not alone, you may be scared to death, But I won’t let you go You may think the sky above is falling But can you hear Jesus calling What do you see when you look at your world today Do you see a glimmer of hope, or has it all turned to gray Well start by counting your blessings one by one Oh and I’m sure right there, you’ll start to see the sun You see there’s always another story, another side to every coin And how you see your circumstance is all about a choice When you see the rushing wind , feel the pouring rain, hear the thunder now as the clouds roll in and you’re blinded by the lightning, do you also hear that still, small voice saying It’s okay, you’re not alone, you may be scared to death, But I won’t let you go You may think the sky above is falling But can you hear Jesus calling Because the darker the night, the brighter He can shine When you see the rushing wind , feel the pouring rain, hear the thunder now as the clouds roll in and you’re blinded by the lightning, do you also hear that still, small voice saying It’s okay, you’re not alone, you may be scared to death, But I won’t let you go You may think the sky above is falling But can you hear Jesus calling…..” On top of it all, last night’s sermon was just awesome. Can you hear the cry of those unsaved around you? I do hope you realize its nigh to midnight – “The night cometh when no man can work.” John 9:4 The scripture tells us in Luke 17:24 “For as the lightning, that lighteneth out of the one part under heaven, shineth unto the other part under heaven; so shall also the Son of man be in his day.” Be that light. Be the Salt. The Darker the night, the Brighter we should shine. Have you accepted your “Go Ye”? (Matthew 28:19 “Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name [JESUS] of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:”)SEEK HIM. Be a Light. Reach out to those around you. Be amazed at the sight God gives you to see just past your Horizon. Love. -Pam

In Need of a Reboot

Wow. My desire to write has about driven me insane for the fact that I haven’t sat and made time to jot down what’s all been in my heart! This morning, I had this huge burden on my heart… the desire for a “reboot”. Have you ever had that thought? Let me explain… Microsoft. Wonderful Microsoft. What would we do without Windows and the Ctrl+Alt+Del feature? You’re on the computer… you click on a few different things, you have a bajillion and one windows open and trying to operate at least 6 programs AND check your e-mail online and all of a sudden all you’re getting is a twirling hour glass… you watch as it goes round and pauses, round and pauses, round and pauses. You click on a window you have minimized and much to your NOT surprise, nothing changes. Your screens are frozen in place, your clock now shows the time it was 6 minutes ago, and still your hour glass is going round – and round – and round. What do you do? When Ctrl-Alt-Del gives you no response, you do what every computer-savvy hates to see – you hold the power button on your computer down until *beep* it shuts off. You wait 10 seconds, press the power button and *whhhhhhrrrl* you hear the wheels start turning as you reboot your system. You are greeted by the beautiful wallpaper you’ve set, no windows, no bogged-down programs, no hour glass twirling… and look! Your clock even has the correct time!!!! How many times in my life do I wish for a reboot. I get so caught up in the things of this world…my clock gets to lagging, I’m late *again*, the need to rush has completely stolen my joy, I have no zeal or zest for many things, including the word of God – I push all that is important to the side in an effort to get in the rat-race of life; I snap at my husband, I snap at my daughter – wow, I even snap at my friends and family, when all they are trying to do is calm me down by hitting a little Ctrl+Alt+Del and “End Task” a few unnecessaries in my life…. Yet what do I do? I refuse to respond to the command, I don’t even let them near my Task Manager – I give them my twirling hour glass…round -and round – and round……all the while, no progress is made ANYWHERE!!! Not at work, not at church, not in my Spirit, and my ministries suffer just the same. I pray that when you are feeling bogged down, you listen to those around you – listen to the messages your Pastor preaches, the words your friends, and mentors have to say – they may just be trying to hit those three little all-too-important buttons that can eliminate a few of the unnecessary processes that are bogging your system down. Thank you Lord, for my cold reboot this morning; I need times like that to realize that YOU are my power supply. Without you, my life does not exist. Dec. 9th 2008

Just a Test using Ping.fm

okay, using ping.fm i am attempting to make a post to (4) of my 5 blog sites..... this is just a test. :-)

Trying...

Ya'll whisper a prayer for me :-) I'm trying my hardest to locate a good trustworthy way of updating my blogs at one time. *heh*
It's hard maintaining ONE blog, let alone MySpace, FaceBook, Everyone'sApostolic, Twitter, Yahoo 360*, Blogger...... I know, I really want to downsize, specially beings I don't do much on any of them other than sign on, post and sign out.... *lol* anywho. This is a test, trying out ScribeFire using FireFox